inadequate

It is almost 3 in the morning, and I am awake and can't sleep. I haven't posted in a while because I have been busy and lazy to be honest. Summer Wesley starts tomorrow, and I will finally have some sort of a schedule, and I am looking forward to that. As Summer Wesley starts up again, I will be able to keep doing one of the things I love most. This past year, God has really shown me glimpses of what he has in store for me. I am so incredibly excited for God's plan in my life, and I feel that I am starting down that path as we speak. I feel though, as I stand on the precipice of this new journey and look out at what amazing opportunities God is laying for me, that I will do nothing but stumble and fail. Why is it that when God has given me so much and for once everything from my faith, to my music, to my personal life seem to be unfolding for the better I feel that I don't deserve any of it. I see all the possibilities and all I think is "why me? why not someone better? I can't do this, you know I will fail." As I start to spend time in the word though, I am comforted by the fact that other people that God used for great things felt the same way I do. I am also blessed to have amazing friends that see more in me than I do, and are willing to smack me around to get me on the right track. Yes I feel inadequate, but that is how God wants it I think, so that when I do achieve great things, it will be because of his amazing Glory.